(go get your best armor!)
Shit happens. Especially when you are falling for someone else that might not even have you under her radar. Not a single dot. Maybe.
And the aching emotion by dint of watching her from afar is really, really suck, I tell you. Sometimes you tell yourself, “It’s okayyy… you can handle this feeling. Maybe just another four or five years, maybe” or “Geez, being single is better. Much, much, much better”.
Well, you lied.
Perhaps, the hardest part in a man’s life is to go against your own will/desire. Yes, desire. It’s like you were in the midst of a raging war, and your chance of survival only 0.02 percent. Not to forget, you only have 7 bullets left. It’s suicidal, aye? But, just like what Paulo Coelho said, “Someone may find peace in the eye of the storm”. And you will find your better self in there, but keep your Faith close. Closer than your very own veins; and whenever you felt like Its getting away, pull it closer back to you as it’s the best morphine for your wound.
And don’t forget to keep your Hope alive. and Pray.
God. Don’t let me fail. Don’t let me fail. Don’t let me fail.
Just don’t let me fail this.