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I hang up the phone tonight 
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush
Cause the possibility 
that you would ever feel the same way 
About me
It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it really just another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
Cause I'm tryin, tryin to walk away
But I know this crush aint goin away, goin away

Has it ever cross you mind 
When were hangin, spending time girl,
Are we just friends
Is there more, is there more
See it's a chance we've gotta take
Cause I believe that we can make this into 
Something that will last, last forever, forever





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Liar, Liar, Pants on Fire!








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Happy Birthday, Noona!



love always,






Congratulation, Wan,




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What If…

What if I told you, that I want you to be mine? Will you say ‘yes’ or something else?

One day, all of this will make sense. This not just a tale to be told, but a truth to be discovered.

Tonight I don’t want to be in my shell no more. I want you to listen; I want you to know that I will wait till the end of the day. Do you think the same way the way I do? Or someone else is occupying your mind? Let’s play confessions.

I used to be too afraid to fall. But this time, I am going to try. Yes, for you I will. I’m too tired seeing you from afar. So, I’m sorry if I stutter due to pile of clutters in my head. Now, it’s time for me to bid farewell to my fears.

This feeling is neither Lust nor Passion.  This is not something in between. This is you and me. and I know that these are just words. Simple, pointless words from a man that in Love. But believe me, they are everything.

I want to walk in a green field with you beside me. I want to shout your name so you will hear what my heart been saying all these days. I want to walk on the clouds so we can lie and fall asleep and grow old together. I care not about the sun and the moon. I only want you.

This is just a myth of you and me.

It is ridiculous, but it is not untrue.





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My PKR bestfriend, Adif Faidz has gone blogging! (WTH!) 

Visit him here; Analisis Politik Malaysia.




p/s: Bajet-bajet kutuk BN okeh? 

p/ss: Anwar sucks. Hahaha!





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Kehadapan bintang jatuh
Tidak tahu mengapa
Tidak tahu bagaimana
Tidak tahu pada siapa
Ingin kuzahirkan rasa
Yang terbungkam dijiwa
Yang entah bila bisa dilunaskan
Menatap wajahmu
Sudah bisa membuat hatiku terpaku
Kau satu dicelahan berjuta
Kau permata dicelahan ribuan kaca
Ku tahu yang ku bisa menunggumu
Hingga ke hujung waktu,
Namun bisakah kau menyambut tangan ku
Hingga ke hari itu?

Aku tahu peraturan-Nya.
Demi sesungguhnya,
Aku ingin menjadi yang halal
untuk menyentuhku



p/s: I know that this sounds like crap, but try to bear with it.
I can't properly think now.






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Visit her here!








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Some people just don't know what RESPECT is.

respect |ri╦łspekt|noun

1. a feeling of deep admiration for someone or something elicited by their abilities, qualities, or achievements : the director had a lot of respect for Douglas as an actor.

the state of being admired in such a way : his first chance in over fifteen years to regain respect in the business.

• due regard for the feelings, wishes, rights, or traditions of others :respect for human rights.

( respects) a person's polite greetings : give my respects to your parents.

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Malam sejuk menusuk sum-sum, angin Mistral,
(angin itu tak mahu reda).
Pada tingkap gemerlap kilauan
Saujana gunung-ganang yang bogel.
Cahaya emas yang tegun
Menjangkau tempat tidurku.
Sunyi, tanpa sesiapa
Kecuali aku dan Tuhan.
Hanya Dia tahu kerinduanku,
Rindu hatiku yang separuh mati,
Rindu yang kusembunyikan dari ramai.
Kesejukan, kilauan, angin Mistral.

Ivan Bunin, 1952.


Aku rindu.



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Surah Al-Baqarah Ayat 216 :

“Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui.”



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There's a storm in my coffee cup. And I dare not to stare.
There's a storm in my coffee cup. And I wish not to interrupt.

I'm caffeinated. And it's not something that pleased me.

I won't take a sip of my coffee because I'm too fragile inside to see the maybes.
I told myself, "if you loved someone you'd take a bullet for her". I'm no Romeo and you're no Juliet.It's only a mere You and Me. Will you believe the story? Will you be break out of fantasy?

I wonder who and where will I be.

It's raining outside.
It's storming inside.

I still dare not to take a sip.




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Bila hati mula tertaut mati,
risau akan kewarasan diri
dicelah-celah semak dosa
cuba keluar dari kusta dusta dan noda
mencari yang taat.

Oh Hati,
Jangan redha-Nya kau pandang sepi


[Suria Apartment, Sept 15]






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Happy Moment:  IKEA; this kids' section was soo irresistible.

Happy Moment: OneUtama, Wan Chai & me were cam-whoring whilst waiting for our fashion-guru, Acad trying out his new skinny jeans. You can see Chip on the far right, cam-whoring with himself.


owh, wait!


I wore my happy elephant shoes for the first time too! Thanks, FA!

Happy Shopping!!





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I found this here. By: Simone Lia


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the comment box is off for some legitimate reasons

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This is GENIUS!

F**king Kangaroos!



Le tired!



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I know that life's suck lately, but that's not the legitimate reason for us not to be happy and smile! So people, let's do some Happy, Nice Assignment. (I hate the word 'TAG'). 

The origination of this wonderful idea was on the blog, She Likes Purple.

Here are Jennie's rules:

*I challenge you to make your own list. The only catch? You can't include a single personyou know on your list. No "I love the way my husband laughs" or "I love hearing my little girl call for me." It'll be tough, I know. (Think about it, I couldn't include MOLLY on my list.) But this particular little exercise is about stripping away everyone who defines you and figuring out what you (not his partner; not their mother/daughter/sister/friend) love.

Let's do it people!!

Here's my Love list:

I love laying on my bed and reading my novels. I love the smell of the brand-new books. I love caving with a friend of mine. I love watching DVDs whenever I'm bored. I love when getting presents from others. I love my home's kitchen better than my livingroom. I love my blog. I love my stinky shoes. I love IKEA. I love bookstores. I love hanging out with friends at coffee houses. I love my few-month-old Body Glove pencil case. I love my wallet. I love designing new things and I love writing. I love sleeping all day long and chatting through the net. I love colorful things and it makes me feel warm and happy. I love my MacBook given by my mom and dad. I love blogging.  I love lending my books to others. I love politics even though it stinks!I love laughing and goofing around with people.

I Love me!

I'm passing this assignment to:

Azie, Acad, Nashrah, Aimi, Tajul, Nazri, Hafriz, Liyana, Tatie and all people who feel like doing it! 



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I felt happy lately, despite all the occurrences that keep on slapping me across the face. I feel happy. And being happy requires no reasons after all. I feel happy but I don't bother to find out why. But I think I know the reason why. But I dare not to put much hope for hope may kill. So I prefer to let it bury somewhere in my heart and brain. (:

InsyaAllah I will be heading to One Utama in few more hours to do some happy  shopping with Acad, Chip and WanChai; boys' day out! I want to buy some happy books for my friends and maybe few clothes for this coming Raya. Dad gave me a quite big happy amount of money, but still I have to spend it wisely, I'm a grown-up already. 

Perhaps I should hit the bed now, this is a very happy short post indeed. But still, it makes me feel.....









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I felt her.

They felt her.

Where is she?

What is she?


and Finally,


for the very FIRST time,

I SAW her.





click here for to be spooked!


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Chip, Acad and me have just finished our mid-term Huayu test. 



and it sucks.

Mandarin sucks!!



p/s: No qualms folks. No 'compact notes' this time around



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I've just came back from my phonetic test. And I'm screwed.

I was caught cheating by Mr. Karim, my lecturer of the subject. Red-handed.

It was the first 30-minutes, I think and Mr. Karim went to my desk and discovered the hidden notes I made. The total time allocated for the test is 2-hours.

And the rest 1 1/2 hour was hellishly tormenting.

This was the first time I was caught red-handed, and the right word to express the feeling is BAD. Yes, I feel bad, and I know I'm bad. Right after the test, I put my courage together and met him in person and I said, "My name is Mohd Zulfadli and fail me if you want and have to, but I'm sorry". That's exactly what I've said to him. And he looked into my eyes and said, "Why should I do that? I will still mark your paper but don't do it again. Bulan Ramadhan." and I said " Sorry" and marched out of class.

In my head there's a voice kept on saying;

" Is that allll?"

" Is thattttt alllllllll?"

The words he said just made me feel even bad. Scold me. Give me an F. Say something nasty to me because I deserve them all.

I feel bad.

I feel bad for me.

I feel bad because I cheated him.

I feel bad because I cheated myself.




What did I trade my innocence for as I grow up?






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The bitch is back.

Will she make her way to tomorrow VMA'08 for more?







Puasa, Moja. Puasa!!!




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Nashrah started this.

We had this little conversation in her blog about our favourite TV-series. Hahaha! Here goes my list:

Current Fave: 

1. Supernatural

The Winchester brothers drive around the state hunting for the evil creatures in their Chevrolet Impala. What can be cooler than two best brothers, witch-hunting, revolvers, and an Impala?

Rating: 5/5

2. Gossip Girl

I didn't watch HBO's Sex and the City because my mom restricted me to do so, on account of the word "SEX". Gossip Girl is the new age "Sex and the City", I think. But of course with more gossips and backstabbings. An absolute every parents' nightmare indeed. xoxo.

Rating: 4/5

3. House

Dr Gregory House, a medical genius than will make you laugh your heart out! Who cares about the illnesses, but how he iron everything up that counts. An absolute genius show for a medical Einstein.

Rating: 5/5

4. Lost

Chip's favourite TV show. You definitely have to follow this series from the very, very beginning. Or else, you'll 'Lost' throughout this show. Chip and I still disorientated anyways.

p/s: The best part is this show will only end by 2010, the year we'll be graduated. 

Rating: 5/5

5. Chuck

I LOVE Chuck. An average computer-whiz-next-door who possess almost all world greatest CIA's spy information in his brain after accidentally read an encoded mail. 

Who says a nerd can't save the world?

Rating: 4/5


All-Time Favourite: 

Roswell! (5/5), The O.C (I hate the ending though), One Tree Hill, The X-Files and Scrubs!


My I-don't-watch-these list:


Heroes = Zeroes. A cheer leader to save the world? Are you kiddin' me? Thanks, but no thanks.

2. Grey's Anatomy

This reminds me of my ex. I'll stick with House then. Damn.


Hahahahahahahahaha! A guy with no bellybutton? I care not. Sorry.




Tell me yours !!




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Tarawikh is even cooler with cool compatriots! 




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I finally realized that, there are no ghosts this month.



Now, I can watch horror movies in peace.



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Ramadhan is finally here.

A holy visitor that we've waited for almost one year is coming back to meet us and share all the blessings with people who are wise enough to see the chances of purifying his/her heart.

Ramadhan should be a month of change and purification. If we didn't perform solat before, try to perform and maintain it from now on. Sometimes, people do forget that Solat is the first 'amal that will be counted in the day of Hereafter, therefore before any 'amal that we want to perform of intend to do, Solat is a must. Solat are like pillars that joined and made up a good structure of 'amal. If we abandoned Solat, I'm afraid that the good deeds we've done will go to waste. 

Tarawikh is the best blessing of all. I hope all of us will try to perform it, at least 8 rakaats. It's an offer from Allah that we shouldn't miss. The rewards are different for each and every night. It will NOT be the same, if you missed the solat tonight and perform it on the other night. Try to catch as many rewards as you can this Ramadhan. And hopefully we'll meet the night of Layl al-Qadr, The Night of Majesty. InsyaAllah.

I intend not to be a preacher, but this is a just a slight reminder to my brothers and sisters and myself for this Ramadhan. Be apart of it. Celebrate it.

Because we still don't know if we're still breathing next year.


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Malam 1:

"Keluar dosa-dosa orang mukmin pada malam pertama sepertimana ia baru dilahirkan, mendapat keampunan dari Allah"