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I feel like a child tonight.


I feel that I want to burst into tears, but I won't. It's funny how time fooled us into. We thought everything are ours. The ambition, the laughters, the joy, the friendship. But things slipped through our fingers. I tried my best to let go of you, I started laughing to something new, I meet new people I've never met, I do things that I used hope to do with you. But my mind still thinking of you. 


My mind filled with emptiness. 


It's funny how we are running and hiding from each other. Try to hide the feelings inside and pretend we will survive. I am happy with myself now and I believe so do you. Our dreams have faded by time. I tried my best to get over you, stand taller than you, speak louder than you, but my heart bleeds, my voice croaked, my knees are weak whenever I think of you. It hurts to see you not seeing me the way you used to anymore.


I can tickle and make you laugh no more ; yes, we used to laugh our hearts out remember? You know me and I know you. But there's always something that both of us will never knew. I don't know what I did is an act of bravery or stupidity. A man's got to do what a man's got to do, remember? But you never understand that. It's empty without you by my side, and I miss you.


I miss you so, so much.


 

25 comments:

val said...

sounds deep...

moja said...

Val,
lol... :P

hellafrenzy said...

val,,it IS deep!
oppa,,i can certainly relate to that..
well,,here comes the misery family,,huuhuuuuuuuuu~~

moja said...

hellafrenzy,
hahaha... tribute to the long-lost relationship. lol! :)

izza lapar said...

gambar heart-shaped toast tu sangat menyelerakan. it almost distract me from the post itself. keh3. despite all that, it was a touching post, like strawberry jam spread on a crispy piece of toast ;p

concrete heart said...

yeah...we wil miss somtin when the thing is lost...well in frenship..i believe the most important thing is trust...once you break it it's damn hard to discover it back...you need more than word to work it out...
he or she doesn't count jez remember all you need are memories dats all....
gudluck....

moja said...

Izza lapar,
this is not a strawberry jam spread ads... Tq... Hahahaha :P

moja said...

concrete heart,

Thank c.h! Your words are soooooo true! :P

moja said...

& do visit me often!! lol! :P

concrete heart said...

are you goin to search n meet those memories?

moja said...

concrete heart,

I don't know. I really just don't know. Everything has changed a lot ever since. I don't really need to search for it because it's there, but i'm quite uncertain to meet. Not this time around. :P

Maybe, my heart just not as concrete as yours..yet.

concrete heart said...

do you need help?
i can lend you a hand...

guilty?
pal, i can sense your problem..if you really seek for other blogs, friendship tags especially...most of them regretted their acts..
do you?
at the same time pal, if you have the barrier called ego, please destroy it...
that's the biggest issue...

concrete heart doesn't mean my heart is tough...it's concrete yet it's fragile..

try to seek for it pal...time demolish everything...don't let it eat up your pieces...don't follow my footsteps..work on it...gudluck..

p/s: are you students or wut? N.2.M.U

moja said...

concrete heart,

Thanks c.h! You did help me out by responding to my entry here :P. I've regretted my acts. But somehow I feel disappointed because the person who I thought I can fully trust with all my life turn their back on me when I'm in a dire need of their help. I lied. Yes, I lied. Just because not to hurt my friend more. If that's a mistake, I think the whole friendship was a grave mistake. I miss them both. But the same time, my heart said that, enough is enough.

I'm trying hard to move on, and thanks God gave me more friends that I can love. And one of them is You! :P

p/s: Yep, I'm a student.
p/ss: Are you? Hahaha lol :)

concrete heart said...

student? not anymore..ahakzz
i've a job..offically and unofficially..

officially: financial advisor
unofficially: surfer n observer! haha

pal...you said 'both'?
that's hard...

no..pal..i can read your feelings thru your blog and i can guess that we don't know other peoples' heart...right?

maybe they need help at the same time you ask for it...n you said that you've lied..
that's a mistake..you shouldn't have lied pal...
you didn't want to hurt your friend but don't you think that the "sweet n sour" are the essences of friendship? think it twice..

p/s: to save your money...
think twice and spend wise...ahaakzz

moja said...

Concrete Heart,

:) hahaaha... I'm a part-time surfer and observer too. and blogger!
Yep, maybe it's my mistakes. But, I think they have moved on with their life. And I should do the same too, right? It's not easy, but its possible.

p/s: You're a financial advisor? coooool! My student-life is full with crap financial problems! I need your advise! Hahahaha :P
Think twice and spend wise? I think more than twice before go shopping! :P hahahaha

concrete heart said...

hey...
let me tell you the tales of me...
i had a best friend before...i think he is a great friend! damn great!
one day, there was a crack..n put him aside while pretending i have others...
but it wasn't true...
i live in a perfect lie...
i do have a lot of friends...yes i do...
but none of them like my great friend..
i keep pretending ovr and over again...
everytime i smile, it remind me of him....

concrete heart said...

forgot!!
another tipsy!

Spend less 4 now and spend more 4 the best!!
ahaakzz...

waiting for my paycheck!!!
wish i could buy a new car...
NEW HONDA ACCORD!
Search 4 it...it's hot

moja said...

Honda Accord? Hehehe.. I'm not a realy a fan of cars.. But my friend does!He's a big fan of I-can't-remember-the-show... Hahaha! You can ask almost everything about cars to him. Ask me? I just dream of Mini Cooper je... ahahaha! :P

bdw Concrete Heart, you're a male or f? :P

moja said...

Concrete Heart,
Thanks for replying to my post. Thanks for trying to help me out here. But, I really think that they don't need me anymore. Bdw, your story is almost similar to mine. I've stopped searching and believing in 'best friend' anymore. No one can replace him eventhough I am badly hurt. Fyi, before I lie to my besfren, I lied to myself terribly. Before he thinks that I hurt him, I hurt myself even more.

Everywhere I go, especially to the places that we used to visit, my heart aches. I should never turn this bitter. Our friendship should last forever. But its not. That's the reality that I've been trying to swallow since I've been left out alone. :(

I miss them. But I'll try not to miss them.

concrete heart said...

...owh...ok then...male btw...
u r swallowing your own heart..
now n forever...
find a cure...
every sickness comes with it's own medicine..
how bitter the medicine might be...
you need to swallow it anyway...

moja said...

C.h, I knew you. We both had this friendship. TQ for dropping by. Good luck. :)

Azie said...

the photos say it all, doesnt it? ;p
i like their fahion sense. they've all got pretty, pretty wardrobes.
aritu cari dvd dia kat batu feringghi tapi xde lagi. oh well.

Azie said...

woops! brau prasan. trsilap post ey? my comment was meant for the other one. ala u know which one kan? ;) oh n btw, gudluck for finals!

thou-should-not-judge! said...

Hey,
Hope you are doing fine :)
Anyway, i just think that whoever accused you for being a bad person or whose morale is ALLEDGELY deteriorated, goes down with their judgemntal and sloppy shallow thoughts. Or should I say undeniably cynical yet hypocritical streotype remarks?

Stop being judgemental. You aren't your god, so save it for your own self :) Even god, I'm sure, isn't as wacky as the person with the slander.

Be good people.

moja said...

thou-should-not-judge!

Hahaha..TQ Mizan! You rock! What u see is wat u get!

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