Last three days, I was at, maybe, the lowest point of health in my life. My head aches tremendously, there are blisters all over my scalp, torso and face and I can barely move a muscle for it would bring so much pain to my whole body. For the first time, my self-spirit was bent to my physical capacity.
I felt so low.
I've been at home for 5 days, and tomorrow I'll be heading back to Shah Alam. Too many things to do; quizzes, assignments, projects and all. I have to go back early even the given off-days by the doc would end next week.
I am not fully healed yet, but my spirit has recovered.
Mak & Abah,
Your son is now twentythree year old gentleman. But he still can't even take a good care of himself at this point. It's funny to think that you've been taking a good care of me since I was 9 months in Mak's womb, and up till today, you still do the thing that you do the best; taking care of me. I know, I know you two are already proud of your three children. But I'm telling you this, Mak & Abah, on one fine day, I will make you really, really, really proud because you two are the best presents Allah can ever give to me. I owe you two too much, too much and all I can ever express is, Thank You. Thank You. Thank You.
I Love you so much, Mak and Abah.
Love,
Mohamad Zulfadli Mohd. Amin
Shah Alam, I'm all psyched-up and will be baaaack!
:)
Waited for almost 2/3 hours.
Gossiping about our First Lady.
Make-up. Checked.
Microphone. Checked.
Spotlights. Cameramen. Crews.
4 panels.
A Lawyer, a Dato', an Ustaz, and Dr Fazley.
#1.
Dr. Fazley :
Name me the latest education theory that haven't been introduced here in Malaysia. If you are a well-resourced person, you would know the answer.
Moja Amin:
( I HATE YOUUUUH! ) May I pass the question please?
Dr Fazley:
Sure. Just wanna check whether you walk your talk or not.
Moja Amin:
( I HATE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUH )
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#2.
Dato' Something:
Name me the education minister of Malaysia during 1962?
Moja Amin:
Tun Dr Mahathir?
Dato' Something:
NO! (sambil geleng kepala)
Moja Amin:
(HAHAHAHAHAHA!)
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#3.
Mr. Lawyer:
Define and please differentiate these two; Malaysian Malaysia & Gagasan 1 Malaysia
Moja Amin:
blahblahblah (dengan yakin!)
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#4.
Ustaz Something :
Zulfadli, tell me about yourself and why we should select you as one of the participant.
Moja Amin:
Blahblahblah (Thank you, Ustaz)
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#5.
Dato' Something:
In what year 13th May tragedy happened?
Moja Amin:
1969 (ceh. easy!)
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#6.
Dato' Something:
Can you sing, act or dance?
Moja Amin:
(uh-oh) I can sing. Maybeee.
Dato' Something:
OK let us here your voice then,
Moja Amin:
(Shit. Nak nyanyi lagu apaaa?)
I feel like I don't belong... in this time and place...
(Yes. Aku nyanyi lagu Whoa! Willow!! )
Dato' Something:
Yes! You got the golden ticket and welcome to Hollywoooood!
dengan muka kanak2 Ribena!)
Moja Amin:
(WTF?) HAHAHAHAHA!
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#7.
Dan banyak lagi soalan-soalan lain. Aku pasrah.
It was a great experience being interviewed by them (and embarrassing too)
Terima kasih atas semua doa dan kata-kata semangat! I kept them all in my pockets during the interview. THANK YOUUU! :)
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17 IPTA/IPTS.
100 candidates will be interviewed.
50 brightest students will be selected
...and stand a chance to meet Tun Dr. Mahathir Mohamad for a 5-day event at Hotel Awana, Genting Highlands.
I'll be interviewed Jabatan Hal Ehwal Khas (JASA) in two days. Yes, the interview will be on Saturday, 3 p.m. I know how much important and valuable this opportunity is, but I can't restrain myself from feeling inferior now. I.am.not.confident. Simple words, I don't think that I'm going to get a spot among the 50.
I know this is a long shot, but I'll do my best. Azalia said, "If God brings you to it, He will brings you through it".
p/s: Dear God, I'll be fasting for 3 days if you give me a chance to be one of the selected 50. Just so you know, I don't mind of being the 50th person to be selected. Pleasssse.
Now we are moving into the third month of 2010. Time flies so damn fast, isn't? Geez. It is time for us to wake up, execute and make ideas happen!
What the hell I'm up to?
I am in the midst of designing a campaign for SIFE & Ethos! Two of my beloved organizations that I joined and in-charge of. The campaign is going to be massive! And now I am accumulating all the supports from people around me. I'll meet Dato' VC next week, and let's see how's his response to my idea / proposal. I hope he'll give the nod to my campaign, InsyaAllah. It's not an easy job, I know. But will I give in and sit back? Hell no.
So, stop hitting the snooze button on our ideas! :)
Who is that clumsy girl? (Jasmine will love this!)
Ergh. I know, I know that I can be helplessly romantic at times. Sorry If I bleed any of your eyes whilst reading my corny "PleaseFuckingFindThis" notes. I just have to let my big emotions out sometimes. But, I don't like the idea of being 'caged' in a relationship, you know. Give me any other commitments, but this kind of commitment will not do. But I am adoring someone now. It's complicated. Hohoho!
Why?
Because she's already in a relationship.
Darn it. Loser betul.
Inner demon?
I have a lot of inner demons. I wished I can turn myself into one of the Winchesters' and slay them off. I used to be a resentful person. To forgive somebody (be it a jerk, bitch, or asshole) is a tall order for me. To make me say 'sorry' over things that entirely not my fault is almost impossible. It's so easy to be angry. But soon I realized that I SHOULD be forgiving. Why? These are the reasons;
1) Maybe he/she is a grumpy, tired, aching and very unhappy soul. He had chosen a wrong holiday. So, he tried to vent his anger/ frustration/ displeasure to another human being, which is me. Should I blame him over his bad karma? No. He had suffered bad enough.
2) God has endowed me with so many opportunities, amazing friends and healthy mind. Should I take the low road and be resentful? No. I don't have rights to do so.
3) Being forgiving makes you look easy to be pushed around? No. Being forgiving & tolerant won't erode my principles and show signs of meekness or submissive. Instead, it will nurture my integrity & moral uprightness.
4) I have to much Love to offer and too busy to let hatred and abhorrence step into my heart. :)
p/s: Congratulations, Moja. Now, you've already slay one of the demons. The rest of them demons can anxiously wait.
Hopes?
I know I'm gonna have an amazing year that profuse with opportunities and positivity! I hope God will grant me with more ideas to change others and my self for the better.
"The best way to make your dreams come true is to wake up!"
