[Niche]

workplace.

[ThePain]

I had my first meeting with my fellow Ethos! members this evening, and I completely stressed out throughout the meeting. Why am I writing this? Because I have to let these out to someone, or something. Since I have no one to discuss regarding this, I will just type this out to sooth my own feeling.

Today's meeting was my first meeting as a newly-elected president of Ethos, and God knows how anxious I was. This 'presidential' thingy is really, really preyed on my mind, since I never lead an organization before, just a mere member or someone assisting the 'president'. Well, I believe it is much easy to be a Muhyiddin Yassin than being a Najib Tun Razak, and I thought it will not be this hard, to be a president. The bitter truth is, I think I screwed up during that almost-two-hour meeting. I lost track of time, I was nervous as hell, I forgot to say thank you and I think I looked stupid when I was trying to crack a joke. My points were unorganized, my words fell into the drains and I think the whole meeting is an utter failure. A sheer catastrophe.

When I was just a member, everything seems so easy from the bird's-eye view. All I have to do is address the ideas, run it and sometimes complaint about it. Thanks to Lady Karma, now I have to endure all the words, and to meet all the expectations. It is in stark contrast of worm's-eye view, where you have to find whatever in front of you; smell the dirt, touch it and do something about it. It is different. Way much different.

I believe that leadership is not just about 'talent', whether you're biologically talented in leading others or not. It is about choices. To be or not to be. The two roads diverged in the yellow woods, yadayadayada. In fact, it is like an open book, you can choose to read it or vice versa. Period.

And now I must improve myself to improve others. I must seek ample knowledge about this matter and repeat not the same mistake. I am looking forward to meet Nana to seek for her tips and opinions, and trying to re-read Stephen R.Covey's The 8th Habit.

I must not quit.

p.s: IF, everything is going your way, expect SHITSTORMS.

[Home&Away]

It's amazing how emotion may drive you.( did this by my own)am missing home beyond words.
ihatehomesickness.

[Lyricography]

Say by John Mayer

* This was made by someone else, I forgot to give the credit! And I am thinking to do the same thing. Favorite lyrics + Picture . Perfect.